I’m sorry I didn’t write a post last week, things got on top of me a bit because I had group therapy and no one-to-one because my therapist is on leave.
I was scared that if I tried to write about it it would all get out of hand and I wouldn’t be able to control my feelings and get through the time until I get support again.
I’ve got a phonecall from the cmht scheduled for tomorrow. Perhaps I’ll be okay.
Group last week was very intense. I opened up more about my feelings of responsibility for the way my dad treated me. I felt like the therapist was saying that it was partly my fault what happened and I tried to ask him if this was what he meant. I know my feelings about it might cloud what I hear. I didn’t get a clarification from him. It was upsetting.
This week there is no group and no one-to-one either. I’ll be seeing my social worker on Wednesday though.